Alone with my Faith

 Do you ever wake up and have a song rolling around in your head that you have to listen to or else?  While this doesn't happen to me very often, it did happen today.

I have easily listened to this entire album over 3 times today and may listen to it again tomorrow :)

For your listening pleasure, Alone with my Faith by Harry Connick, Jr.

My life has changed

My world is uncertain
Everything's strange
Everything's new
But I'm not concerned
With what tomorrow will bring
'Cause I've got today
And I'm gonna pull through

Alone with my faith
What I know is true
What gives me assurance
When I don't know what to do
I don't have all the answers
But I have always known
I'm eternally faithful
So I am never alone

I'm wide awake
It feels like I'm dreaming
I know what I see
But it doesn't seem real
I hear what they tell me
But it's hard to believe
No, I can't explain it
But I know what I feel

Alone with my faith
What I know is true
What gives me assurance
When I don't know what to do
I don't have all the answers
But I have always known
I'm eternally faithful
So I am never alone

I just gotta dig a little deeper right now
I just gotta work a little harder right now
I just gotta look a little closer at myself
Take my time, keep my faith, yeah

I still believe
My story's not over
I'm making my way
Just not like I planned
I still see the sunrise
I still see the rainfall
I know who I am
And I know where I stand

Alone with my faith
What I know is true, mm
What gives me assurance
When I don't know what to do
Mm (I don't have all the answers), I don't have all the answers, no
Ooh (but I have always known), but I have always known
(I'm eternally faithful) I'm eternally faithful
(So I am never alone) so I am never-never alone
I'm eternally faithful
So I am never alone

The last few months of life have been challenging and downright hard, but like the lyric says, I'm eternally faithful so I am never alone.  No matter what, God will never leave us or forsake us and I am so grateful for that promise.

New Every Morning...His Mercies

 I am so grateful that God's mercies are new each morning and that His grace is sufficient even when we feel overwhelmed.

He is the joy of my life and I am can't imagine my life without Him...I would be a complete and utter mess for sure.

If you're feeling overwhelmed and beaten down (like I was in my last post), take heart and remember that God has already prepared a way of help and healing.  All you have to do is remind yourself of His promises and perhaps go to bed early so you can wake up to His renewed mercies in the morning :)

You are loved, sweet friends!

Hello blog...

 I've missed you.

Life is a funny thing in that it can often get in your way of actually living and doing things you truly enjoy.

My life seems overwhelming most of the time, where I am simply just looking for the next break to catch my breath.  This doesn't seem like truly living to me, nor is it particularly enjoyable to feel that way.

I think what I miss most is myself, hanging out with me and enjoying the small things in life, making plans and staying connected with my inner person.

This has been an overwhelming week and I have had very little time to myself so I feel in a constant state of recharging just enough during sleep to simply make it through the day, but nothing beyond that.

I miss the creativity that used to come from solitude, the inspiration that would flow when alone, the clarity that would rise when it was just me.

I definitely also remember the sadness I used to feel all of those years I spent, but the sadness is much more intense and there is pain of being hurt by those you life with.  Which is better?  Which is worse?

Peaceful, joyful, contented, simple, free...that is how I want my life to be.

Feelin' Like a Boss

Lately there are not too many moments in my life where I feel like a boss...except for the never ending stress.  But today I decided to cut my own hair and that amazing boss feeling has surfaced!

When I was single I had many moments where I felt in control and on top of things, but now with a husband and family I have lost much of that feeling.  So even though cutting my hair is a simple act, it gives me the feeling of independence and control I've been missing.

Thank you hair :)

FLOORED!

I am completely floored...

I just came across a new YouTube channel about full-time RVing and have been really enjoying their videos this morning.  The last video I watched was about the time they were robbed while on contract work near San Diego, CA.  The video discussed the fact that while they had a ton of insurance it actually covered almost none of the items that were stolen from them.

I decided to check out some of the comments (not a typical practice for me) to see if anyone had any suggestions or tips about the property RV insurance to get if you plan to full-time RV.  I was completely floored by the heartlessness of many of the comments!

"IDIOT!  Total rookie mistake to ever leave anything in your car in CA!"
"You did NOT get robbed!  You were the victim of theft!"
"That was a stupid move...stay out of California."

I could not help but think about how people just feel free to say anything as long as they can hide behind a computer or phone screen, but would they actually say these mean and unkind things to someone's face?  I really have no words by reading many of these comments to the point that I had to close the app and move one.

What has our world come to?  How is it that such heartlessness and unkindness is so acceptable in our society?  This is one of the main reasons I have put off actually making videos; not necessarily fear of bad comments, but just not wanting a platform that allows the perpetuation of negativity.

My heart hurts for those who have to endure the negative comments as well as the commenters themselves...allowing negative speech, whether written or verbal, has the power to kill anything and everything around it.

Words are powerful...how will you use your words today?  Please use them for good.