Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Now, I am not a huge fan of Katy Perry, but these lyrics seem to embody my feelings on life over the last 10 years or so. I've mentioned in previous posts about waiting for life to begin and wondering when it would happen...but suddenly, I have a new philosophy! I say suddenly, but it's been brewing for a while and was finally just realized last week.
For the last year, I have been focusing on buying a house and all that that entails: building my credit, saving money and looking...and looking...and looking...and looking for the perfect house. I almost feel like I've set a record because I have literally found 8 houses that I was extremely interested in...only to find out that every single last one was under contract. This road of seeming disappointment after disappointment has lead me to looking at life through a new pair of glasses...after all, when God closes a door, He always opens a window, right? But sometimes, that window maybe in a different room or on a completely different floor, right!?!?!?
Last week, I was invited to spend a day at Lake Lanier Islands Resort during our annual manager's conference and the president of our division gave a speech that, in short, was about one thing - Passion. While most speeches of this nature are geared towards inspiration and happiness, I didn't react the way most would...at least not at first. Throughout the rest of that day, I was actually sad & a little depressed...oh yes, it was no fun...and this feeling continued until the next day. Why was I sad and depressed? Simple - because I no longer knew what my passion was...and the realization of that fact was quite depressing. So I began to ask myself...what is my passion...or better yet, what are my passions? Some of my passions are obvious, such as music, helping others, creating art; but others have been buried for many years...what is this buried passionate treasure? Travelling!
As a child, I remember having conversations with my Dad where he would ask me what I wanted to do when I grew up and my answer was always the same: I want to go everywhere! He would say "But where do you want to visit?", and again I would respond "Everywhere!" Until a week ago, I had not thought of that memory in many, many years, and the realization of said memory has sent me on a quest of travel exploration :)
Since relinquishing the idea of purchasing a house, I'm very much at peace...which in and of itself is a huge relief. In addition, I've been able to focus on tons and tons of travel research and have already planned my first trip & think I even have my 2nd one figured out. I was also given the amazing opportunity today to stay at a gorgeous resort in Kona, Hawaii for 7-days - for FREE - all I have to do is get there!!! This is so amazing since I've ALWAYS wanted to visit this amazing state :) In addition, the "villa" sleeps 10...which means that I need some other people to go with me!!!
Looking back to the beginning of the year, I remembered that I've already begun to visit places I've never been before, so I plan to end the year the exact same way. In 2011, I've been to Nashville, TN and Gulf Shores, AL; in the future, I plan to go to Washington DC (shhhhh, please don't tell my niece, it's a surprise for her!), a cruise to the Bahamas (with my sister in tow) and maybe the Hawaii trip if I can swing it...if not, I'll shoot for the beginning of 2012! Oh, and I'll be heading to Vegas the end of July for a work trip :)
Now I feel I can stop playing hide and seek with my passion and shout from the rooftops...I found you!!! Now, get out there and find yours too :)
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