I am currently struggling with how to feel.
On one hand, I trust in God and I know this was not a surprise to Him in any way; therefore, I know He has a plan and a place for me.
On the other hand, I feel as if I was picked out and thrown away by people who felt my skills were not of any benefit to them any longer.
The reality of that idea is pretty painful, even with trying to stay hopeful it still hurts to feel that you are that expendable.
I have a multitude of people who are going to bat for me and spreading the word that I am available, and I am so appreciative of them all. Even with that the pain of being tossed away still lingers.
I know I will get through and the perfect opportunity will come along, but emotion is often not in tune with what you know...it's in the here and now and can be very raw and illogical.
Until then...
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